Category: selfcare

In honor of Mental Health Awareness Week, I though I would take a trip down memory lane and share this Post-Impressionistic self-portrait from almost 20 years ago when I was in high school. Even as a kid, I knew how I felt…but I didn’t always understand why and I certainly didn’t know how to deal with it. Even moving into adulthood, it didn’t get clearer. If anything, it blurred. It wasn’t until recent years when I made a conscious decision to reopen my wounds so that I could heal from the source of my pain…from within…that I started to do so. The journey isn’t over…yours isn’t either.

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A lot of my work and content explores themes of rebirth and rising from the ashes. Rising from the ashes isn’t a one time thing. It’s not one and done. We often need to build ourselves up to tear ourselves down and then do it again…and again…and again. It’s a cyclical process of conditioning and rebuilding that is necessary for growth. Each time the goal is to rise and fly higher and higher, but it’s imperative to know when it’s time ignite the flames so we may rise again… dusty, dirty, and covered in ashes from the burning embers 🔥

These shots are from a shoot with Christa Maier where we sacrificed one of my most valuable paintings called “Because Nothing Never Was (Suicide Note).” I don’t sacrifice my art because of lack of value. I sacrifice my art specifically because of value. In order to obtain, a sacrifice must be made. This is the law of equivalent exchange and it is a key component of Acrylic Alchemy. Difficult sacrifices must be made in the name of growth and this was mine. Sometimes pieces of us must by laid to rest so that others may rise 🦅 This shoot required me to cover myself in ash (from the sacrificially burned painting) and gold paint (which you can see on my hand) and lay naked in the burning embers. It was one of the most powerful shoots I’ve ever done and also included a beautiful video and even a blooper real because you just can’t take life too seriously or it will consume you. You all have what it takes to rise and start anew. Are you willing to make the sacrifice 🌹

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As every story has a past, present, and future, what may at first glimpse appear to be non-objective abstraction is in fact segmentations of energetic imagery interacting and breathing through the boundlessness of space and time. I’m very blessed and thankful to be able to collaborate with Lucidious on this powerful and emotional piece that sheds light on suicide and suicide prevention. I’ve never shied away from the deep and the dark and I won’t start now. This is one of my most intimate and personal creations, depicting an angel embracing a suicide victim at the moment of impact. It reflects upon not only losing my father to suicide on my mother’s 21st Birthday, but also my own battles that have continued to follow me throughout my life. I was only .38 seconds away from a completely different story that would have left many of my greatest creations nothing more than dreams never brought to fruition. If you or someone you know is fighting this battle, please call 1-800-273-8255 because there is hope. There is always hope as long as you’re still breathing. Keep fighting 🔥🌹🔥

“.38 With A .38 (The Speed Of Eternal Stillness)” is currently on exhibit at @artsdistrictlibertystation with the @expressive_arts_institute in “Recovering The Artist 2019: A Show About Hope” until June 15.

🎵 “Save Me" by @lucidious
🎨 “.38 With A .38 (The Speed Of Eternal Stillness)“ by @acrylicalchemy
🎬 by @theglitch.og