Michael Carini | Michael’s Note
In August 2012, at the age of 28, I was reconnected with the biological family I never knew. At that time, I learned that my father did not die in a car accident as I had always been told. Rather, I came to find out that he took his own life on my mother’s 21st Birthday, just shortly before I turned a year old. He did not leave a note. Almost 30 years later, in my most personal and emotional creation to date, I wrote that note for my father. Written through his eyes and my hand, that piece of our soul is “Michael’s Note.”
Michael Carini | Thoughts about art and life
For you with love Deanne
Michael Carini | Beneath The Wings Of Free Swan (Deanne’s Song)
It took me almost three years to get to this painting because I didn’t want to admit to myself that she’s really gone and may never be found, but I finally completed my tribute painting to Deanne. She used to call me her “Wings” and say I was her protector (she is the reason I have them on my back), but now she is mine. Though I was there almost every single time she needed me, this one time I was not and I will forever wonder…what if?
Utilizing the Carini Technique, you may see the swanlike figure in this painting or perhaps a beautiful woman in a white dress. You can see her head fading into the sunset as she floats above the water surrounded by beautiful flowers. As the branch beneath her breaks and her metaphorical cage crumbles to pieces, it is time to fly away as a bird set free. Sia’s “Bird Set Free” happened to play right as I was putting the final touches on this painting.
Deanne has finally found the freedom and peace she was searching for and will live on in my heart and this painting. She was my muse and inspiration in life and will continue to be so in passing. Deanne loved music, writing lyrics in my journal on her final visit. This is her swan song.
*You can see her handprints on my 10 Year Floor Canvas in the background of this photo. They are from that final visit.
Michael Carini | Art Journal
Michael Carini | .38 With A .38 (The Speed Of Eternal Stillness)
The Carini Technique: As every story has a past, present, and future, what may at first glimpse appear to be non-objective abstraction is in fact segmentations of energetic imagery interacting and breathing through the boundlessness of space and time.
This painting explores the concept of suicide and depicts a victim of suicide being embraced by an angel at the moment of impact. It is, at least in part, a reflection of my thoughts dealing with the loss of my best friend and muse, Deanne Hastings, who disappeared in 2015 and has yet to be found.
Michael Carini | Acrylic on Panel
I Will Never Let You Love Me (Because I Could Never Love Myself)
Every ending is also an opportunity for a new beginning. It’s all a matter of perspective. Don’t allow your past to extinguish your flame. Allow your future to spark it and rise from the ashes a phoenix reborn.