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“I Gave You Every Piece Of Me But You Could Never Love A Puzzle (95,126,814,720 Pieces Of An Alchemist).” This painting reflects upon battles with both self-love and the realization I often give the love I always wish I had. It’s often difficult for people to love a puzzle they can’t put together. The box can be intriguing, maybe they even open it, but so few are willing to take the time to see it through to the final piece. The number of puzzle pieces is also a direct reference to my mega creation Regenaissance. Perhaps the reason the puzzle is so difficult to complete is that so many pieces are missing because they were given away to people that mishandled them and never put them back in the box.
When I’m able to get back to painting, I will be starting a new “Puzzled Hearts” collection, which will closely tie with this piece and concept. If you like my work or my stories, please share. You make what I do possible. Every purchase or small donation goes a long way. CariniArts.com offers free worldwide shipping and interest free payment plans. Check it out and you can see this painting HERE
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This is a detail shot of “Searching for hoMe.” The title is not a typo. We are all searching for home. We are all searching for ourselves. When we find ourselves, we will find home.
I’ve spent the majority of my life “Searching for hoMe” and I still am. I don’t think that I’ve had many periods in my life where I felt safety and comfort for an extended period of time. It has always been a fight. Most of what I’ve known has been a struggle to survive and most of it has been completely alone. I don’t regret that because it has made me strong. It has made me the man I am today. Perhaps one day though, I can find that place to call home and someone to share it with. I will not stop “Searching for hoMe.”
I love this photo because half obscured in the distance is a photo of myself. Home is right in front of me, I just can’t see it yet. If I continue moving forward though, I will.
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In August 2012, at the age of 28, I was reconnected with the biological family I never knew. At that time, I learned that my father, also named Michael, did not die in a car accident as I had always been told. Rather, I came to find out that he took his own life on my mother’s 21st Birthday, just shortly before I turned a year old. He did not leave a note. Almost 30 years later, in my most personal and emotional creation to date, I wrote that note for my father. Written through our collective heart, eyes, and hand, that piece of our soul is “Michael’s Note.”
Dedicated to the father I never had the honor and privilege to know-
Though I have publicly exhibited “Michael’s Note,” I don’t believe I have ever transcribed and posted its content. In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, I would like to share that with you for the first time because I know it can be difficult to read from the painting images. Please note that this was written as a process of stream of consciousness and in one continuous sitting. To maintain authenticity and the necessary energy, I wrote it at a very low point when I was considering giving up. When I had previously considered giving up, I don’t believe I had ever intended to leave a note either. This experience allowed me to write the note my father never left and give his family a bit of peace, as I chose to give them the painting. At the same time, it was as if I was writing my own suicide note. This painting, in a sense, represented the death of a piece of myself so I could be reborn.
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Commencing upon the precipice of homelessness, “The Boy In The Box” follows the rigid geometric structuring of the “The Up-Side Of Down” and represents the perpetual quest for personal freedom and breaking outside of the box.
“Reconstruction of the Chimera (Zachericle)” tells the story of the mythological phoenix while also incorporating personal narrative elements and concepts of the ouroboros & chimera. Created during my 2012 artist residency, it was inspired by a young man named Zach. Zach would stop by on a daily basis to grab a piece of candy from the bucket I left by the door for those passing by. One day, Zach decided to step in a little further than usual which led to a deeper conversation. I handed Zach a print of my work for stopping by, at which point tears welled up in his eyes. It was at that time that Zach told me he had been living on the street and was just accepted into a program where he would have a bed to sleep for the first time in a long time. My print, he said, was one of the only things in his possession that he could call his own, and the first thing for him to hang above his bed. By the time I finished this painting, Zach had stopped coming by. I don’t believe he ever saw it and hopefully that’s because he’s doing well. Sometimes we just need a chance to start over.
The ashes in this piece are from a painting I burned titled “The Transmutation of Miss-Tere” and the cut fragments are from a piece titled “Sacrifices and Second Chances (The Day Eye Made The Devil Blink).”
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Behind The Paint-Working on the new painting I’ve been doing live on IG. “When Nobody Else Would Love Me (I Had To Learn To Love Myself)” is a work in progress much like myself. It requires daily effort and some days more than others. It’s necessary though to complete the painting…and to complete myself.
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“The Up-Side of Down” was inspired by a 2009 assault and battery that hospitalized Carini with multiple facial fractures, severe eye trauma, and a concussion. Carini’s signature icon, which he saw flashing in his head during his concussive state, is a key repeating element in this series that represents life growing from death and discovering the positives in negatives.
Featured: The Insatiable Monster Eating Away At Me From The Inside. Acrylic, Vodka, and Xanax on Panel. This painting takes a deep dark journey into personal demons and the things that eat away at the soul. Simultaneously, it reflects upon the simple and pure beauty of the battle back from those deep dark places. Sometimes is may even appear pretty on the outside while crumbling from within. We’ve all seen these places and some of us are still there. Keep fighting.
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You Called Out For Me And So I Came To You
(The Dreamer And The Night Terrors)
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As every story has a past, present, and future, what may at first glimpse appear to be non-objective abstraction is in fact energetic imagery interacting and breathing through the boundlessness of space and time 🌹
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