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Featured: #MeToo (Darkness Of The Spotlight And The Illumination Of Shadows)

The spotlight can feel like a very dark place at times. This painting reflects upon the dark truths that lie in the shadows of that spotlight and shedding light on the monsters that are those shadows. This is dedicated to all of those that have battled, are battling, or will battle those monsters and demons. You are a light for yourself and those still trapped in the darkness of their own shadows. Only by illuminating your shadow and stepping into it with your light can you ever truly free yourself.

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In August 2012, at the age of 28, I was reconnected with the biological family I never knew. At that time, I learned that my father, also named Michael, did not die in a car accident as I had always been told. Rather, I came to find out that he took his own life on my mother’s 21st Birthday, just shortly before I turned a year old. He did not leave a note. Almost 30 years later, in my most personal and emotional creation to date, I wrote that note for my father. Written through our collective heart, eyes, and hand, that piece of our soul is “Michael’s Note.”

Dedicated to the father I never had the honor and privilege to know-

Though I have publicly exhibited “Michael’s Note,” I don’t believe I have ever transcribed and posted its content. In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, I would like to share that with you for the first time because I know it can be difficult to read from the painting images. Please note that this was written as a process of stream of consciousness and in one continuous sitting. To maintain authenticity and the necessary energy, I wrote it at a very low point when I was considering giving up. When I had previously considered giving up, I don’t believe I had ever intended to leave a note either. This experience allowed me to write the note my father never left and give his family a bit of peace, as I chose to give them the painting. At the same time, it was as if I was writing my own suicide note. This painting, in a sense, represented the death of a piece of myself so I could be reborn.

See and read “Michael’s Note” here: Michael’s Note

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“Within The Bounds Of Without”

Our only limitations are the ones we create for ourselves. This painting depicts my signature icon piercing the box I had created for myself. Only you can free yourself from your self-imposed box. I thought this would be a great piece to share today because of how it relates to my story (and possibly yours) as well as the celebration of Earth Day. 

In case you missed it, yesterday was a big day for me with the 10 Year Anniversary of the assault and battery that gave birth to Acrylic Alchemy and “The Up-Side Of Down.” If you want to see some of the news coverage & video clips, you can check out my blog at CariniArts.com 🙂

I did an Instagram Live video yesterday telling the story in full for the first time in 10 years. I’ll be doing another Instagram Live video today for any follow up questions. My Instagram handle is @acrylicalchemy for those that would like to tune in and check it out.

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Today marks the 10 year anniversary of the assault and battery that led to the birth of “Acrylic Alchemy” and, ultimately, the man I have become. I know this may not be my prettiest picture…though possibly close…but this is real life. Multiple facial fractures, severe eye trauma, and a concussion, this assault and battery was the catalyst for my series “The Up-Side of Down.” This teachable moment also breathed life into my signature Carini Arts icon, the image I saw flashing through my head during my concussive state. Some see it as a tree and others see it as a nerve or synapses firing. Both are accurate as it represents life growing from death and creating your own light in times of darkness.

This was a life changing experience that taught me forgiveness and inspired me to share my stories with others that are struggling with various issues in their own lives. The person on the other side of this colorful experience was not a bad person. Sometimes in life there are misunderstandings. Sometimes in life people make horrible mistakes. If I was ever to commit an egregious offense, my hope is that someone would show me the same forgiveness for my transgressions. We’re all human. We’re all fallible. We all make mistakes. When life punches you in the face a few dozen times you have to roll yourself over, spit out the blood, and pick yourself up. You may not always have someone there to pick you. There may be times you have to do it yourself. I refuse to let anyone or anything hold me down and I will fight until the very last breath. Perhaps I’m fighting for me. Perhaps I’m fighting for you. All I know with certainty is that I’m always fighting for something and someone. I’m a fighter. It’s in my blood. You can see that in this photo.

I have made full amends with the gentleman on the other side of this colorful experience. It was important to me that I do so in the very same place the incident occurred (my living room) because you have to face your traumas and obstacles head on. I also gave his daughter one of the paintings that rose from this empowering experience. I believe “The Limit Of Infinite Possibility” was the perfect piece to serve as a symbol of hope and growth. I wouldn’t be the man I am today and many of the things I have accomplished never would have happened if not for this day in my history. I hold no ill will towards him and had already forgiven him when I was asking to take my prom picture in the hospital, doing my best to make light of a difficult situation. It actually bothers me when people speak poorly of him because he’s just a man that made a mistake. We all do. It also bothers me when people refer to it as a “beating” because I was never beaten. You aren’t beaten until you accept defeat. I will never accept defeat and will never be beaten. Life happens. Laugh it off. Keep fighting though. Always keep fighting. Share your struggles. Empower others. Forgive. Love.

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“The Up-Side of Down” was inspired by a 2009 assault and battery that hospitalized me with multiple facial fractures, severe eye trauma, and a concussion. My signature icon, which I saw flashing in my head during the concussive state, is a key repeating element in this series that represents life growing from death and discovering the positives in negatives.

This weekend marks the 10 year anniversary of the assault and battery that was the catalyst for “Acrylic Alchemy” and “The Up-Side Of Down.” This painting reflects on the desire to take away someone else’s pain. Sometimes we can’t handle or don’t know how to deal with our own pain, yet we’re still willing to shoulder someone else’s in the effort to lighten their burden. 

Everyone has pain, some just hide it better. Some experience more in a day than anyone should have to face in a lifetime. Learn to use that pain as fuel, for yourself and for others. If you can do that, that pain can heal your hurt.

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In August 2012, at the age of 28, I was reconnected with the biological family I never knew. At that time, I learned that my father, also named Michael, did not die in a car accident as I had always been told. Rather, I came to find out that he took his own life on my mother’s 21st Birthday, just shortly before I turned a year old. He did not leave a note. Almost 30 years later, in my most personal and emotional creation to date, I wrote that note for my father. Written through our collective heart, eyes, and hand, that piece of our soul is “Michael’s Note.”

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As every story has a past, present, and future, what may at first glimpse appear to be non-objective abstraction is in fact segmentations of energetic imagery interacting and breathing through the boundlessness of space and time. This painting is dedicated to my best friend and muse, Deanne Hastings, who tragically went missing in 2015 and has yet to be found. She once asked me to do a huge painting with a giant set of wings. This is my tribute to her. Deanne always called me her “Wings” but now she is mine and I will do whatever I can to keep her spirit alive with the beauty she inspired.

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Commencing upon the precipice of homelessness, “The Boy In The Box” follows the rigid geometric structuring of the “The Up-Side Of Down” and represents the perpetual quest for personal freedom and breaking outside of the box.

“Reconstruction of the Chimera (Zachericle)” tells the story of the mythological phoenix while also incorporating personal narrative elements and concepts of the ouroboros & chimera. Created during my 2012 artist residency, it was inspired by a young man named Zach. Zach would stop by on a daily basis to grab a piece of candy from the bucket I left by the door for those passing by. One day, Zach decided to step in a little further than usual which led to a deeper conversation. I handed Zach a print of my work for stopping by, at which point tears welled up in his eyes. It was at that time that Zach told me he had been living on the street and was just accepted into a program where he would have a bed to sleep for the first time in a long time. My print, he said, was one of the only things in his possession that he could call his own, and the first thing for him to hang above his bed. By the time I finished this painting, Zach had stopped coming by. I don’t believe he ever saw it and hopefully that’s because he’s doing well. Sometimes we just need a chance to start over.

The ashes in this piece are from a painting I burned titled “The Transmutation of Miss-Tere” and the cut fragments are from a piece titled “Sacrifices and Second Chances (The Day Eye Made The Devil Blink).”

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Commencing upon the precipice of homelessness, “The Boy In The Box” follows the rigid geometric structuring of the “The Up-Side Of Down” and represents the perpetual quest for personal freedom and breaking outside of the box.

As every story has a past, present, and future, what may at first glimpse appear to be non-objective abstraction is in fact segmentations of energetic imagery interacting and breathing through the boundlessness of space and time. This painting depicts wings sprouting from the wounds of an angel. Sometimes it is only through our wounds that we are able to open ourselves up to healing so we may fly.

On exhibit at Arts District Liberty Station with the Expressive Arts Institute in the Martha Pace Swift Gallery until June 15. Exhibition: Recovering The Artist: A Show About Hope.

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Two of my most emotionally charged paintings are currently on exhibit at Arts District Liberty Station with the Expressive Arts Institute at the Martha Pace Swift Gallery in “Recovering The Artist 2019: A Show About Hope” until June 15. Reception April 5.

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