Category: deanne

“Beneath The Wings Of Free Swan (Deanne’s Song)” is the last tribute painting I did for Deanne, finally acknowledging that she may, in all likelihood, not be coming back. It was so difficult to encapsulate all that Deanne was. That’s probably why I dedicated so many pieces to her. She also deserved more. She was a major influence on my work and the man I am today. I was trying to get a decent photo of this painting when I got caught up with the way the light was playfully illuminating it. 

Painting Statement: This painting took me almost three years to get to because I didn’t want to address it or acknowledge it. This is the tribute painting for Deanne Hastings, my best friend and the woman I loved. Deanne disappeared near the border of Washington and Idaho at the end of 2015. She used to call me “Wings” and is the reason I have them tattooed on my back. She would always tell me stories about the archangel Michael and say I was her guardian angel, there for her through a number of trying predicaments and loving her unconditionally. This is the one time I was not able to be and I think about it every single day. Now I’m under her wings and this tribute is her swan song as she is finally freed of her cage and hopefully at peace. I love you Deanne.

Original and prints available. Get yours + Carini Arts gear at CariniArts.com and please also check out my new blog post with my Deanne update. Sharing her story is the best way you can help bring closure to her story.

“If I Could Steal Your Pain.” Acrylic on panel. 36in x 24in. Prints available.

This painting reflects on the desire to take away someone else’s pain. Sometimes we can’t handle or don’t know how to deal with our own pain, yet we’re still willing to shoulder someone else’s in the effort to lighten their burden. Everyone has pain, some just hide it better. Some experience more in a day than anyone should have to face in a lifetime. Learn to use that pain as fuel, for yourself and for others. If you can do that, that pain can heal your hurt.

This painting is dedicated to my best friend, muse, and the woman I loved. This is dedicated to Deanne Hastings, who tragically disappeared in 2015 and has yet to be found. It is suspected that she was murdered but there has been no closure to date.

More from Carini Arts​ at CariniArts.com including a full blog post and update on Deanne. A new “Deanne” podcast will also soon be released.

“On The Broken Road Between Reality And Truth.” Acrylic, letter, earring, and cloth on panel. Prints available.

I created “On The Broken Road Between Reality And Truth” when I discovered that my beloved muse, Deanne Hastings, had been found after being declared a missing person for several days during her trip home back around 2010. This painting contains pieces of a letter I wrote her (reflecting upon my thoughts and what I wanted to say to her at that time) as well as her earrings and some cloth she had left me the last time I had seen her. We all lose our way at one point or another. Keep your eyes open for the spark that will illuminate your path On The Broken Road Between Reality And Truth-

Tragically, Deanne went missing again in 2015 and has yet to be found. It is suspected that she was murdered but there has been no closure to date. Last week would have been her 40th Birthday. Please check out my updated blog post on Deanne at CariniArts.com + you can also order prints of this painting.

“You Called Out For Me And So I Came To You (The Dreamer And The Night Terrors).” Acrylic on canvas. Prints available.

This will forever be one of my favorite paintings because of who and what it represents. Deanne Hastings was my best friend and muse who tragically went missing at the end of 2015 and has yet to be found. It is suspected that she was murdered, but there has been no closure to date. This painting reflects my first cross-country visit to see Deanne and help her with her recovery after a relapse in Coeur d’Alene. I remember she was having terrible night terrors from the withdrawals and doing whatever I could to comfort her and just be with her. Whatever she needed from me, I was committed to being there for her and loving her unconditionally.

Deanne always called me her “Wings” and is the reason I have them tattooed on my back. I just wish I could have there for her this last time when she really needed me most. I could sense the call was going to come, but it never did, and part of me knew why. I’ve always felt that I failed her by not being there that last time, though I wanted to be and would have been. I think one of the reasons I work so hard is because of Deanne. I always tried so hard to impress her and make her proud. The last time I saw her, she told me she was. I will forever do whatever I can to keep her spirit alive through my creations. She is now my “Wings” and my angel. I love you Deanne.

Deanne inspired a number of my my best and most personal paintings. I keep reminders of her in my studio, including the last postcard from a tribute exhibition I did for her in 2010 that portrays the very first painting she ever inspired, “Midnight Dancer (Take Me Away).” I also have her handprints from her last visit, which she placed on my “10 Year Floor Canvas,” framed and always within view. I will never part with those. The remainder of the paintings she inspired were sent to her family for her children to one day have…happy and beautiful memories of their mother.

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“Chasing The Gate (Searching For Deanne).” Acrylic on canvas. 48in x 36in. Canvas prints available at CariniArts.com

“Chasing The Gate (Searching For Deanne)” reflects upon feelings of anxiety, depression, and glimmers of hope as it highlights the disappearance of my best friend and muse, Deanne Hastings, in 2015. It is suspected that she was murdered but there has been no closure to date. This painting depicts a long and arduous quest to find Deanne and meeting her again one day at the gateway of heaven.

Deanne always called me her “Wings” and is the reason I have them tattooed on my back. I just wish I could have there for her this last time when she really needed me most. I could sense the call was going to come, but it never did, and part of me knew why. I’ve always felt that I failed her by not being there that last time, though I wanted to be and would have been. I think one of the reasons I work so hard is because of Deanne. I always tried so hard to impress her and make her proud. The last time I saw her, she told me she was. I will forever do whatever I can to keep her spirit alive through my creations. She is now my “Wings” and my angel. I love you Deanne.

“The Gate Of Alchemy” or “The Gate Of Truth” is a metaphysical and metaphorical structure and the central point of transmutation in Acrylic Alchemy. I created Acrylic Alchemy based on the principal that if I utilize my pain and struggle to create something positive and beautiful, if I learn to love it, it can no longer hurt me. Learn to master your pain. Don’t let it consume you. Embrace the suffering and use your pain for the greater good. There are a lot of people out there that need their “Wings.”

Today marks what would have been Deanne’s 40th Birthday. As such, today is about celebrating her. She deserves that and so much more.

Deanne disappeared in November, 2015 and because of her battles with addiction and mental health, she was deemed less important in the eyes of those responsible for finding her. It was a case of “At least now she’s at peace.” Deanne was a mother of three and my best friend. I loved nobody more. Glaring oversights were made in her investigation and both she and her story have since been forgotten by most. I have written two blog posts and recorded a podcast at CariniArts.com that include a candid look at the woman she was and also an update written this week based on new information made available to me.

This is one of my greatest mementos of Deanne…her handprints. During her last visit to San Diego, Deanne covered her hands in orange paint and pressed them on my floor canvas. I had completely forgotten about them until I unrolled my “10 Year Floor Canvas” a few years back, years after her disappearance. I’m so thankful that I rediscovered this unexpected treasure. They now rest on the walls of my studio so Deanne is always with me when I’m working and also when I sleep.

A few months back I was in the living room watching TV when I heard a loud crash. When I went to investigate, I noticed Deanne’s handprints mysteriously in the hallway outside my room. Securely hung on the wall of studio, they somehow managed to fly off the wall, put a gaping hole in my door (as only Deanne would), and roll into the hallway. If that wasn’t a sign Deanne was trying to tell me something, I don’t know what is. Deanne has always loved being the center attention and making a big impact. It’s nice to see some things never change. I figured that was her way of telling me it was time to write that blog post I put off for too long and get her story back in front of people. I think Deanne wants her story told and I think she wants closure for her family and those that loved her. I think she deserves that.

The best way you can help Deanne is simply to share her story until it gets in front of the right person or gets enough traction for the people that should have done something about it to finally do something about it.

Happy Birthday Deanne! I love you always and forever-

Check out my blog posts and Deanne HERE

Today marks what would have been Deanne’s 40th Birthday. As such, today is about celebrating her. She deserves that and so much more. 

Deanne disappeared in November, 2015 and because of her battles with addiction and mental health, she was deemed less important in the eyes of those responsible for finding her. It was a case of “At least now she’s at peace.” Deanne was a mother of three and my best friend. I loved nobody more. Glaring oversights were made in her investigation and both she and her story have since been forgotten by most. I have written two blog posts and recorded a podcast at CariniArts.com that include a candid look at the woman she was and also an update written this week based on new information made available to me.

This is one of my greatest mementos of Deanne…her handprints. During her last visit to San Diego, Deanne covered her hands in orange paint and pressed them on my floor canvas. I had completely forgotten about them until I unrolled my “10 Year Floor Canvas” a few years back, years after her disappearance. I’m so thankful that I rediscovered this unexpected treasure. They now rest on the walls of my studio so Deanne is always with me when I’m working and also when I sleep.

A few months back I was in the living room watching TV when I heard a loud crash. When I went to investigate, I noticed Deanne’s handprints mysteriously in the hallway outside my room. Securely hung on the wall of studio, they somehow managed to fly off the wall, put a gaping hole in my door (as only Deanne would), and roll into the hallway. If that wasn’t a sign Deanne was trying to tell me something, I don’t know what is. Deanne has always loved being the center attention and making a big impact. It’s nice to see some things never change. I figured that was her way of telling me it was time to write that blog post I put off for too long and get her story back in front of people. I think Deanne wants her story told and I think she wants closure for her family and those that loved her. I think she deserves that.

The best way you can help Deanne is simply to share her story until it gets in front of the right person or gets enough traction for the people that should have done something about it to finally do something about it.

Happy Birthday Deanne! I love you always and forever-

Check out my blog posts and Deanne HERE

Today marks what would have been Deanne’s 40th Birthday. As such, today is about celebrating her. She deserves that and so much more. Knowing Deanne, I wanted to share different sides of her to bring a small amount of levity to a major tragedy. I know that from beyond, she would make some joke today that she is grateful such beautiful pictures of her were used for her “Missing” photos. That’s the type of woman Deanne was…unapologetically her…and I loved it. 

Deanne disappeared in November, 2015 and because of her battles with addiction and mental health, she was deemed less important in the eyes of those responsible for finding her. It was a case of “At least now she’s at peace.” Deanne was a mother of three and my best friend. I loved nobody more. Glaring oversights were made in her investigation and both she and her story have since been forgotten by most. I have written two blog posts and recorded a podcast at CariniArts.com that include a candid look at the woman she was and also an update written this week based on new information made available to me.

The best way you can help Deanne is simply to share her story until it gets in front of the right person or gets enough traction for the people that should have done something about it to finally do something about it.

Happy Birthday Deanne! I love you always and forever-

Check out my blog posts and Deanne HERE and don’t forget her podcast.

Missing Wings: The Unfinished Story Of Deanne Hastings:

Today marks what would have been Deanne’s 40th Birthday. As such, today is about celebrating her. She deserves that and so much more.

Deanne’s disappeared in November, 2015 and because of her battles with addiction and mental health, she was deemed less important in the eyes of those responsible for finding her. It was a case of “At least now she’s at peace.” Deanne was a mother of three and my best friend. I loved nobody more. Glaring oversights were made in her investigation and both she and her story have since been forgotten by most. I have written two blog posts and recorded a podcast at CariniArts.com that include a candid look at the woman she was and also an update written this week based on new information made available to me.

The best way you can help Deanne is simply to share her story until it gets in front of the right person or gets enough traction for the people that should have done something about it to finally do something about it.

Happy Birthday Deanne! I love you always and forever-

Today marks what would have been Deanne’s 40th Birthday. As such, today is about celebrating her. She deserves that and so much more. This photo is from her unexpected (always was) 2013 visit. I have very few photos with or of Deanne because when I was with her, I just wanted to be with her. I didn’t care about taking photos…but I’m so thankful I have found a few. This is from the last time she visited me here in San Diego. I was working on the 4th piece of “Regenaissance” at that time and it was right around this time of year. I subsequently made one final visit to see her in Washington. That was the last time I saw her.

Deanne’s disappeared in November, 2015 and because of her battles with addiction and mental health, she was deemed less important in the eyes of those responsible for finding her. It was a case of “At least now she’s at peace.” Deanne was a mother of three and my best friend. I loved nobody more. Glaring oversights were made in her investigation and both she and her story have since been forgotten by most. I have written two blog posts and recorded a podcast at CariniArts.com that include a candid look at the woman she was and also an update written this week based on new information made available to me.

The best way you can help Deanne is simply to share her story until it gets in front of the right person or gets enough traction for the people that should have done something about it to finally do something about it.

Happy Birthday Deanne! I love you always and forever-

Check out both stories on my blog HERE