How do you find your muse? What triggers your passion for each brush stroke? I just started painting again after a 5 year break after recovering from a 3 month coma and I can’t find mine anywhere. I have a studio room full of blank canvas and untouched oils and dusty brushes. I’ve tried so hard to get it back but I’ve lost my way.
You don’t really find your muse so much as your muse finds you, but your muse must find you working. The passion comes from being lost and the desire to find myself. I think you have the perfect starting point of waking up from which you can rise and do/become anything you want. Don’t focus so much on exactly where you will go and how so much as the baby steps of rising up a bit at a time after a long rest. Your life is your blank canvas now. I’m trying to get back up myself right now after losing my way. You are not alone and perhaps we can rise together.